Being Alone

Whenever I am alone I become aware of the restlessness within me.

I find that I want to start doing something. Being is not enough.

There is a strong force or impulse to fill in the space of "being" with some kind of "doing".

My mind bombards me with its reasons. There is an emotional component to it as well.

I recognize it all as a state of non-peace.

Underneath it there is total peace.

I start to become aware of breathing. I take deep breaths.

Everything that the mind and emotions are caught up in are counter-productive to feeling this deep state of being.

Feeling and being present to that deep state of being is primary. I know that it is the source of rational, sane, and balanced action.

It is the eye within the storm.