The Noisy Mind

There is the seemingly incessant stream of thought, rattling on about anything and everything. It is mostly stressful and almost always pointless.
At some moment I become aware of it and there is an almost instantaneous reaction to it of irritation and resistance. I don't want my mind to be like this and I try to resist it and change it.
These seemingly different states are two sides of the same coin.
On one side is what I am and on the other side is what I think should be.
This all takes place inside the space of what is.
I then see that both sides of the coin are in opposition and that they are both fragments of thought.
It is there that I let go of the whole coin and find myself in silence.

Bringing Balance Into Being

It is about balance, and it cannot be told to another.
In reading a book about riding a bicycle, a human being cannot learn balance, no matter how well the process is described, no matter how many pictures or videos are used in describing balance, it must be experienced through trial and error by each individual wishing to learn balance.
Therefore, it would appear that balance is not a factor of knowledge. If no book can teach a person balance, then it must not be a factor of knowledge. What is it then? It seems to be something that you just "get". You get a knack for it. Is there another form of learning that doesn't require knowledge? A form of learning that is holistic, meaning that you get the whole of it at once and there is no time involved - no time where knowledge is accumulated. You observe your body doing something something - like learning to ride a bike - and then there is this quantum leap at some point where balance is understood. Does this involve the intellect?
When a human being suffers psychologically, it is said that they are 'out of balance' or 'imbalanced'. Is this describing another state that the intellect cannot solve? There is a balance that must be understood inwardly through meditation and observation of the actual experience. Just like learning how to ride a bike. The brain's full attention is on balance when learning how to ride a bike... is it attention to the actual that brings balance into being?

Appreciation and Beauty Are One

I come into being.

Incarnate, as it were, into this body every moment that I am aware.

In every moment that I am aware, I am no longer the continuity of the past moving into the future. It is as if the stream is interrupted or maybe it is more like I have stepped out of the stream and am observing it flowing. It is the end of knowledge. It is space.

A train moves in the distance, its engine a low rumble, its horn far off. Something like that would be lost inside the noise of the brain with all its thoughts, but to listen in silence is to have the capacity of utter appreciation and the capacity to feel beauty in even that sound.