Meeting Life

One thing I am doing is watching my internal narrative.

It is the first authority that shapes my worldview. 

And whether it is “right” or “wrong” doesn’t matter because I’m not interested in having a worldview.

I’m interested in life as it is apart from my intellectual image of it. 

Because, right or wrong, my thought-image of the world is not the world. 

I find that meeting the world without an image is to see it, interact with it, sanely, peacefully as it is without any distortion of my beliefs, prejudices, dogmas, etc. 

It is something that has to be done to be understood. Like walking on a tightrope or riding a bike. 

Only then can the actual reality of it be felt.

Seeing The Reaction

Every moment the ego reveals itself through the story that is being told in reaction to the environment. This is the internal monologue.

When the mind is noisy, every moment is filled with the ego’s narration and reaction to the world and the people in it.

There is an all-pervading assumption, a conditioned story that exists about the world and everything in it which colors the reaction. It is “the way things are” and “the way I am.” These assumptions are held and accepted as fact without question. 

Through meditation, seeing, and vigilance, more energy is claimed and put into awareness. Then, the all-pervading assumptions begins to crumble, the conditioning is exposed, a once great authority begins to fail. 

Then the reactions don’t carry their weight anymore, they are questioned the instant they arise.

The awareness then has enough power to choose what is true and what is false.

Then reality is seen for what it truly is.