Peace Is My Lighthouse

I have had a long break from work, and in that time I have felt the levels of relaxation grow and deepen. 

As the time draws closer I can feel a part of me beginning to "gear up", preparing for some sort of battle or stressful experience. 

It is all just a state of mind, and I want my relaxation to deepen. I see the wrongness in "gearing up". It's not good for me.

Taichi is about constantly finding relaxation within effort. My life is no different than that. 

I want my relaxation to deepen as I go back to work. As I go through my life. 

I am always looking for relaxation. Always seeking the depths of it.

Peace is my lighthouse.

The Source Of All

It is easy to get lost. There is a sleepiness that sneaks in and before I know it, I am lost.

The good news is that there is always a way back, and it can happen in an instant.

No matter what the circumstance, find the way back to the one who is watching the mental/emotional activity of the mind. 

Anything that is active within the mind is being observed. Find out who is observing. Track back to the root.

That is the reality that is happening in the moment. 

The ego will want to pull awareness away from this inquiry, but do not waiver. 

You are leading yourself back to the source of all. Peace. 

Find out who is watching all of this and see what happens.

Is there an answer? Or is it a state of alertness and aliveness that has no explanation.

Clean Up Your Inner Space

Pollution seems to be a thing for us humans. 

We pollute our environment with all kinds of toxins and garbage. 

We destroy the natural order and make it difficult for life to flourish. Even our own life.

I think most importantly we allow inner pollution to exist within ourselves. 

We don't do what is needed to clean up our inner environment.

We don't keep the toxic waste from flowing out of us.

Our speaking, our actions, our way of seeing the world are all affected by this toxicity.

Anytime we act from a space of deep unhappiness, we pollute our environment and that of others around us. 

It is mental and emotional pollution that we are spreading. It is very harmful. Violent. Destructive.

Look at the state of humans - still killing each other, still fighting, still fearful. 

This is the result of inner pollution being allowed to flow out of us and destroy our environment. 

Before we can comment on the world and judge others for physically polluting our environment, we must first look within and clean up our own atomic disaster. 

If we clean up our inner space as a whole human race, the external world will follow. 

The Need For Novelty

The ego always wants something new. It devours novelty.

When it isn't chewing on some bone of novelty, or thinking about its situation, it is seeking something new to occupy awareness. This is known as restlessness or boredom.

This ego must be unplugged. This ego must be burned away with the light of awareness.

Awareness must not get lost within the desires of the ego.

Poltergeists

Only the content of the mind can obscure the truth of actual reality.

Only the sense of "me" can experience guilt, blame, suffering. 

Again, the personality causing trouble. The content of the mind leading us into confusion.

The "me" is like a noisy ghost. A poltergeist. 

The thoughts that move within the space of our mind are like poltergeists. They make noise that distracts us or frightens us.

We must take our attention away from these distractions that seem so important and pay attention to what actually is.

Life smooths out, and we come into harmony with the universe.

The content of the mind is afraid of this.

It wants to be the boss.

Drop The Personality

The personality distorts reality.

This is because the personality is trapped in the past. It is created from the past. It is a "living" memory.

The personality has a way of seeing the world. It has a way of seeing people. It has a way of seeing itself. It has already decided what the world is like. 

In this, there is no freedom, only the illusion of freedom. 

The personality has strong opinions, beliefs, and judgements. 

To be open minded, it must be dropped.

Reality must be experienced without any prejudice if I am to be in harmony with it. 

Otherwise I am imposing the will of my personality on it.

That usually leads to frustration.

 

The Personality

I had this experience.

I was with a group of people who were in silence. No talking, no eye contact. We did this for a full day.

When we came out of it, people started talking again, and I became aware of how much energy it took to talk. 

It was not just physical energy, there was also mental and emotional energy as well. I became aware of my personality. 

My personality was this thing that I felt like I had to use to interact with people. It was loaded with all kinds of meaning. It had its own purposes and reasons for being. 

It was an enormous drain, so I let it go, but I had to pay attention to it as it was a habit. An ingrained, unconscious reaction. If I didn't pay attention to it, it would rise up instantly and begin operating again.

My ego which wants to be liked felt like if I didn't have my personality, I would be boring, a non-person. The truth is that I reclaimed an immense amount of energy.

From time to time, my personality slips back in and eats up energy. The root of the personality is fear. Fear burns up energy and distracts awareness.

Silence restores energy.

The Unsaid

I am more interested in what is unsaid than what is said.

More often than not, what is said comes from a personality as a reaction. It is fake.

What is unsaid is real.

The unsaid is spoken in times when a human being is being real. Usually the unsaid comes out like water bursting through a dam. Grief, anger, fear, strong emotions.

I am working on emptying out the unsaid part of me, making sure that part of my being is expressed.

I am not so interested in the said part of me. The small talk.

I will get to the point where there is nothing unsaid within me. At that point life will be a different experience.

I see the truth in this. Now it is time to manifest it.

Wish me luck.