Question The Authority Of Your Ego

I have observed that my ego is not interested in the quality of this moment. 

It is far more interested in the "next moment" - the future - where it believes that something better exists, some sense of being "more" than now. A "better me".

Because it sees the future as containing this "better me", this sense of completeness, accomplishment or well-being, it reduces the present moment to being a means to that end. Therefore, this moment is a state of being "less" and the future is imagined as being "more" - "I will be more kind", "I will be more happy", "I will be more at peace", "I will be more important", etc.

At its core, the ego feels bad, it feels that there's something wrong with itself and life, so it lives in striving, wanting, escaping, needing, demanding, dominating, justifying, so it can cope with this deep sense of being flawed. It's not good enough for the world and the world is not good enough for it.

The assumption the ego makes is that in the present moment, I am less. I am broken. I need fixing, improvement, more awareness, more understanding, more time, more, more, more. That is what the ego says like a broken record in the present moment, because it is striving to get to the mind-projected salvation of the future, where it imagines everything will be "all right", "better", "at peace".

The ego also wants to fix the outside world. "If it was only this way then I could do this, or be that, or have that". 

But it is all a trap.

The ego is using the mind to put a carrot of illusory perfection on a stick which causes us to constantly chase this phantom of "someday", "soon", "becoming", "will be", forever. We can never get to the future because the future... is always in the future. 

Life happens in the present moment. So where and when will happiness emerge?

It emerges now, from being.

What are you present to right now? 

Maybe you feel peace, or maybe you feel the anxiousness of the ego-mind, the urgency, the non-stop monlogue chattering away, trying to pull your sacred attention away from the only moment that matters, the only moment where anything actually exists. 

Peace, love, harmony, sacredness, stillness, joy, insight, compassion, integrity, wholeness, they all only exist... right now.

Question the assumption that you need fixing. Question the urgency to "become" someone or something.

Question the authority of your mind.